chicago '08

we spent time with our nieces over the holidays. we also visited friends with kids. I am still recovering from the exhaustion. the problem is with me- not with the babies. I don't know how to stand back and observe the kids and continue with adult conversation. I can only interact in full spastic mode, throwing kids and screaming. somehow I do fine at work when I have a little one to test or therapize (you wouldn't know that word- it's only for those of us in the biz). but in a purely social situation, however, there are no holds barred. and it doesn't end until I have a backache and am hoarse.